Friday, April 29, 2005
withers away @ 11:26 am
the 2 beautiful pieces we played..
GranadaGranada, I'm falling under your spell,
And if you could speak, what a fascinating tale you would tell.
Of an age the world has long forgotten,
Of an age that weaves a silent magic in Granada today.
The dawn in the sky greets the day with a sigh for Granada.
For she can remember the splendor that once was Granada.
It still can be found in the hills all around as I wander along,
Entranced by the beauty before me,
Entranced by a land full of flowers and song.
When day is done and the sun touch the sea in Granada,
I envy the blush of the snow-clad Tierra Novada,
Soon it will welcome the stars
While a thousand guitars play a soft Carbinera.
Then moonlit Granada will live again,
The glory of yesterday, romantic and gay.
And soon it will welcome the stars
While a thousand guitars play a soft Carbinera.
Then moonlit Granada will live again,
The glory of yesterday, romantic, gay Granada.
BlackbirdBlackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to be free
Blackbird fly
Blackbird fly
Into the light of the dark black night
Blackbird fly
Blackbird fly
Into the light of the dark black night
Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
It's something Mystical
Thursday, April 28, 2005
withers away @ 10:59 pm
GOLDthis was our aim. this was wad we got. frm nothing to something. this rox.
reached sch late.. well but it was all to a good start coz we were all refreshed.. and it didnt take us too long to warm up.. after using the LT till 11+ we went to CA4. which was damn squeezy.. guitar 1s had to sit on the floor.. haha but we didnt mind.. went for lunch.. den change n makeup.. tie ribbon to our hair.. ms ng bought stickers for our nails.. haha.. n helped us paste them.. den we prac for a while more.. and that was when we got really really high.. coz we sounded gd.. (i mean hw can we nt sound gd in an enclosed place like the container?!?) den someone everyone started going mad and scream and wad-not.. oh yah n we sang bdae song for weishun.. coz its his bdae today.. haha.. everyone's morale was damn high.. sky high i would say.. n we went off for the bus..
it was squeezy.. sanjay sat beside me.. haha our blackbird! its not really racism lah.. but just a joke.. and he doesnt mind i guess.. was carrying dingxiao's bag for her since she was looking after the double bass.. slept with the really cute cow on her bag haha.. while the ppl were still v high n going mad.. mingxian was videotaping ppl.. haha..
reached SCH.. got rather scared.. coz seeing other grps mah.. den like they v pro lidat.. their guitars all so good.. even their cases.. my gosh.. other schs got more money lah.. bleah.. den we were all quite scared.. but still v high.. n morale still up there.. haha.. after we went into tuning rm we were rather panicky i think.. but we sorta collected ourselves.. went to backstage n waited.. reminded each other abt the stuff to take note, strongly believing that we can all make it.. that was why we pulled through i think..
everything was so fast after we went on stage.. me n bea were the first to go up.. my fingers went numb with cold.. but got quickly warmed up as i played.. we enjoyed wad we played.. i could feel it.. we were together.. even when we rushed a bit here and there we were still together.. i guess this is v impt.. we were all working towards the same thing..
when we finished i nearly couldnt walk down the stairs properly.. i was just so excited!!! hahaha.. after we all went out we were like screaming and talking alot.. we were all still damn high and excited loh.. just couldnt quieten down..
later went inside to listen to the rest of the ensembles.. den came waiting.. waiting for the results.. when the annoucer came all of us sat up and looked at her so intently.. haha.. there were so little golds.. even the pro jcs had gold and not gold with honours.. got seriously scared.. and nervous.. den mj got gold.. they cheer like hell... duh.. but all i was thinking is for them to shuddup coz the next jc is us.. me mb and bea were holding each other's hands damn tightly..
"national junior college. *pause* gold." my god we went mad.. scream like hell.. i was laughing and crying at the same time.. well i expected myself to do that since that's wad happened while i was in ny choir.. msged alot of ppl.. all the hard work.. it paid off..
after we were out of the hall, took lots of photos and stuff.. cheered.. even tried to sing sch song haha.. see how high we were.. exco, guitar 1s, mb, bea, ms ng n mr koh went back to nj.. me mb and bea were going mad on the bus.. sat in all sorts of weird positions with our legs high up on the backs of the seats.. sang oldies.. oh wadeva.. it was fun and we were still v high..
went out for dinner at ps.. wanted to get alcohol so went down to carrefour.. couldnt decide on wad to drink and ended up drinking... jolly shandy.. haha wad the.. it was quite nice lah.. but not enuf alcohol sia.. haha..
ms ng n mr koh is going to treat the grp to lunch.. prob on mon.. edeline's bdae!! haha.. i still think that we really rox man.. we've made it.. with so little experience and so many problems.. im so proud of u guys.. :D
It's something Mystical
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
withers away @ 10:13 pm
we wanted to end today's prac early.. well i suppose we did.. coz after keeka left at 6 we didnt play the guitar anymore, save those guitar 1s plus mr koh who was entertaining us with their playing and singing.. mr koh brought in a stack of papers, asked us to take one each and write our name on the it.. like orientation, we passed the papers around and wrote stuff to each other.. that really took quite a well but it was really informal and peppered with laughs haha.. oh yes rf and some others were helping the whole grp polish our guitars..
by the time we finished (well we didnt really finish writing for everyone) it was getting late.. settled down.. mr koh wanted ppl to go to the mic to address everyone.. just when i muttered that i'll definitely have to go up and say something, i got called.. come to think of it, its the first time i've ever addressed this whole grp of ppl to try to encourage them.. words just came out.. seriously i didnt really plan wad i said.. i guess it was just everything i truly felt within..
we've really really come a long way.. i rmbr myself giving up hope on the grp.. coz our playing was really shitty.. even up till just a few mths ago.. it was quite a dread to go for practices because the playing was just so mechanical.. and i didnt really make it a point to talk to the ppl there.. frankly speaking practice was boring.. but recently, we all worked hard like no one's business, hurt our fingers, played like hell, pracitise smiling and swaying to the beat.. everything we went through pulled us together as one.. something within us changed.. i began to learn the names of ppl.. interact with them.. laugh with them.. but we all knew when we had to get to serious work..
i began to find the spirit of ny choir in this guitar grp.. which i once thought i'd never feel again in here..
after i finished saying wad i wanted to say, other ppl went to talk too.. it just felt like so ny choir.. haha.. den ky suggested doing a cheer.. we didnt know wad to cheer coz we dun haf anything like a guitar cheer or wad.. so in the end shiwei led the 3 cheers for guitar, and squirrel led the guitar oei cheer.. we actually cheered. not half-heartedly but out loud. they were just simple cheers but guess wad.. i was touched.. haha.. oh well maybe i was just getting too emotional haha.. but its a feeling of total hopelessness to a sense of confidence of my fellow ppl in the grp..
18 hours more. and we'll be on stage in SCH. not the first time im standing there in front of the audience, but the first time with a different group of people and emotions. syf for the 1st time in SCH.
but like wad mr koh said, God who loves me perfectly is watching me play.. what fear should i have?
It's something Mystical
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
withers away @ 11:01 pm
today's prac went on pretty well.. quite a no of teachers listened to us playing in the atrium.. even mrs cheng.. i hope we'll be all hanging our heads up high with pride at the ps on friday, with ky saying "presenting to u, njc guitar club, gold.." well the scene's been playing in my mind quite a lot of times..
we really worked v hard.. like wad ms ng said, we deserve it coz we really worked for it.. but i guess sometimes results dun correspond to the effort put in.. haha.. oh wells.. we're playing as though we dun give a shit abt the pain of our fingertips.. joyce said that its ok if we let our fingertips die of pressing the fretboard too hard since we're right handed.. haha.. hmm den wad will happen to those left handed? oops.. haha...
im not really freaking out.. at least not on the outside i guess.. hope i wun freak out tml.. maybe i will, but not show it to the grp.. haha..
we can make it.. we just need to perform our best on stage.. that's all we need.. that bit of mental strength..
It's something Mystical
Monday, April 25, 2005
withers away @ 2:52 pm
havent been blogging coz i know all im going to blog abt is everything i feel inside abt syf.. 3 days left only lah!!!! im scared.. haha.. no lah.. angklung having it today.. in abt an hr's time.. hope to hear good news frm them:)
having full dress rehearsal later.. hope everything goes well.. but we still got some stuff unsettled ba.. got lots of qns to ask ky.. haha.. bleahz..
bu shi lai de tai kuaijiu shi lai de tai chimei li de cuo wu wang wang zui jie jin shi shijin guan hun mi you shi meng xing you shi bu jian chiren sheng zui da de kuai le ye bu guo ru shisuo wei zui sheng meng sida gai jiu shi zhe ge yi simei cuo by faye
It's something Mystical
Friday, April 22, 2005
withers away @ 12:17 am
my com's screwing up like hell.. its hanging every time i get online.. i better backup my stuff.. just in case..
today's been a crazy day coz i was saying a lot of stupid stuff.. couldnt really think coz i was damn tired.. laughed really alot alot.. haha..
a week left.. wad more can i say? i just hope we can recover and not have more casualties.. going to a battle with injured soldiers is quite ridiculous.. and its a tough battle.. once and for all.. im comforted to see so many ppl trying so hard and i really hope it pays off.. but first, i still think we need to recover.. ppl we must really jia you! :)
grasp something beyond your reachcomprehend something beyond your scopeis this trying to be goodor just being plain stupid
It's something Mystical
Monday, April 18, 2005
withers away @ 12:37 am
omg its so fast.. syf is only 11 days away.. thanks to ky who got the schedule of the remaining pracs out.. at least feel more at ease.. though there are still loose ends to tie.. hoho
well seriously im quite surprised at rf.. he actually emailed me the synopsis of the song.. both me and ky didnt think that he'll do it, but i still msged him anyway.. he actually did send me nyo.. haha im really surprised.. muz rmbr to thank him haha..
miracles may not existbut if u believe in themdoesnt it make life more hopeful
It's something Mystical
Saturday, April 16, 2005
withers away @ 12:06 am
was actually quite in a bad mood today due to some reason.. but the day ended good! well prac today was tiring.. the uncle was chasing us out of the classrooms.. heard angklung play.. it was so nice!! alot of us wanted to dance to the beat haha.. so we came out, got on 174 without really knowing where we were going to eat dinner.. in the end settled for some indian fast food outlet.. forgot wad its called..
seriously i didnt think it'll be that fun at first, but we really enjoyed it alot man! on the trip there we were laughing throughout.. haha.. abt everything.. learnt abit of vietnamese too! haha.. but forgot everything liaoz.. but nvm bea u still rmbr the action dun u? haha.. do it to el! haha.. den during the meal we laughed even more coz of stupid conversations haha.. it wasnt quiet on the trip home either.. we just had so much to say haha.. and laugh abt that is.. laugh until i damn tired.. i think everyone going mad liao.. after today's prac.. everyone v tired.. haha..
we must do this more often!! its fun! and we should pass this on to the juniors too.. i really see hope now.. though our tempo still quite messed up.. with practice i guess we can overcome it.. we're all working hard.. till fingertips hurts until numb.. skin coming off already.. haha.. jia you!!
oh yah pw results released today! got 2.. i want pw outing!! we gotta find time to go out sia.. but this gotta wait till my syf is over, maria's syf over, barney's comp over.. jia you everyone!!:)
oh yah read an article in time mag today.. or rather juz looked at the pix.. and realized bush's dog is called barney.. dotz.. hahaha..
It's something Mystical
Thursday, April 14, 2005
withers away @ 11:49 pm
nth really happened today.. was just talking to mang juin and xiu abt syf.. bleah i do hopewe can at least go down to SCH to see how its like.. hope we can settle a lot of the nitty gritty stuff tml too.. stuff like attire.. bleah there's only 2 wks left to syf.. gotta pia.. well i guess we already are.. haha..
wonder how many ppl would turn up for guitar grp dinner tml.. ytd's one got cancelled at the last minute.. bleah..
tml's going to be a looooooooooong day.. haha..
yao yong xiang xia tian de wei xiaoyin cang hao xin qing you duo zao bu zuo ni chen zhong de bei baodang zuo xiang zhi yi chang de hui baowo yong xiang xia tian de wei xiaogu li xiang dong tian de xin tiaoyong qi he zhen ai hui yu daosui ran xing fu ai gen ren duo mao maoxia tian de wei xiao by s.h.e.
It's something Mystical
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
withers away @ 11:06 pm
mrs che is such a nice warm and motherly teacher.. the way she comforted us.. oh wells.. must not let her down again.. she says i haf high expectations of myself and i agree, which is why i fell doubly hard.. but i also think she has high expectations of me too.. maybe not high but yah certain level of expectation.. i must jia you:) all of us should too! jia you everyone!
really really hope we pull through syf with a gold.. frankly i never did feel that we were anywhere near there last yr.. even up till early this yr.. then, syf to me was just something we had to go for.. the desire to win and perform during syf while i was in ny died in me when i went into guitar in nj.. but hoho now i really think we haf the potential and i really wanna see the whole grp unite and go for it.. the thought of being on stage again (and for the first time in the first row somemore, since height doesnt matter anymore now haha) keeps me in suspense.. haha.. wad a weird word i used.. strangely enough i miss the stage.. the stage presence.. the confidence.. the anticipation.. haha.. really really hope we can make it.. must jia you too!:)
wanted to blog abt wad happened ytd but nvm.. it was a bad day.. afternoon rather.. so shant bother to blog abt smth lidat..
moving on...
It's something Mystical
Saturday, April 09, 2005
withers away @ 12:14 am
from wad pd quoted during the cognitive behaviour therapy: a thought reaps an action, an action reaps a habit, a habit reaps a character and a character reaps a destiny.
It's something Mystical
Friday, April 08, 2005
withers away @ 10:54 pm
today started off with me being touchy and stuff.. for no reason.. well wadeva..
but the pt is it ended well.. didnt get to practice during prac time at all.. had exco meeting + guitar 1 meeting.. for the entire prac.. sorta.. well thrashed things out.. not alot but its a good start.. well i think mr koh rox.. well i suppose i like inspirational teachers.. even when ppl dun really deserve it, its a display of strength to take the initiative to talk to them or even eat the humble pie.. that's when u break through them.. coz u're never going to get anything done if u go the hard way..
hmmmm we still got a lot to work on.. communication is really impt.. n considering that the exco is going to hand over prob in may, we dun really haf a lot of time to settle the stuff.. but still.. learning pt! haha..
talked to keeka at the bus stop and realized that we didnt really implement our ideas since last yr.. reflection.. wad the guitar 1s said abt us is true to a certain extent.. hmm..
and now we're all sourcing out possibilites to help us improve.. gold with honours? i dunno how far away are we.. but we'll still go all the way.. and we gotta find some way to motivate our ppl..
i should start to be thankful for a glass half full of water instead of lamenting abt the half glass of water i lost.. u lose some, u gain some..
It's something Mystical
withers away @ 2:38 pm
HAPPY BDAE CYN! hoho.. we'll go out on mon.. hopefully nothing crops up haha..
oh yes.. ny choir got gold with honours!!! omg im so proud of my juniors!! hahaz.. ms lim must be damn happy lahz.. :D
oh yeah talking abt syf.. the dance grps are like all getting gold with honours.. we are just so damn pressurized to get gold lahz.. i wonder wad'll happen if we dun get a gold.. argh.. i hate to think of that.. we're all under lots of pressure..
rang wo men bao chi wei xiaogei ji mo de ren yi xie yi kaowo men yao bao chi wei xiaogei gu dan de ren yi zhong xin qing de yong baobao chi wei xiao by s.h.e.
It's something Mystical
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
withers away @ 2:29 pm
in btyz again.. after a long long time.. waiting for lunch..
really wanna thank u guys.. thanks for the faith u all had in me.. thanks for the help.. thanks for the verse dear.. im in the recovery stage liao haha.. well i guess im not someone who will stay in the depression stage in terms of results.. coz to me, though results are impt, they aren't everything.. and in wadeva i go through, i know He is here with me and He will make everything wrong right again..
wo ai feng lewo feng dao zi ji tong ye bu xiao defang qi le bao hu zi ji de ze renfang qi le di kang cui ruo de tian fenai feng le by penny
It's something Mystical
Saturday, April 02, 2005
withers away @ 10:26 pm
blogger ate up my entry that was supposed to be up 2 days ago!! argh..
alot happened.. shant bother to elaborate.. results so far sux.. i believe its gonna suck somemore.. based on the cognitive behaviour therapy thingy we went for today im not supposed to talk like this but.. hiya who cares haha.. shall bother abt my negative thoughts later.. seriously thinking abt some stuff now.. i wonder wad He is trying to tell me.. nvm i'll noe in due time.. its always the case..
another depression in the business cycle.. i wonder when will the recovery stage come.. hopefully next wk.. well it'll have to wait till stuff are more settled..
oh yes before i forget.. lao gong happy bdae!!! hohohoho.. hey hey no need to ask me for alcohol liao lah.. go get urself haha.. dun forget to share wif me haha..
this coming wk is going to be packed.. hiya actually everyday.. teachers r getting stressed.. so r we.. syf coming.. blah blah.. be thankful i can still laugh.. haha..
there's still time.. shall work looking at the moment because its going to pass soon and the future will come.. juz gotta work my emotions out properly during this time.. n relieve stress in a proper n less violent manner..
and i wanna believe youwhen you tell me that it'll be okya i try to believe you,but i don't
when you say that it's gonna beit always turns out to be a different wayi try to believe younot today, today, today, today, today...
i don't know how i'll feeltomorrow, tomorrowi don't know what to saytomorrow, tomorrowis a different day
it's always been up to youit's turning around, it's up to mei'm gonna do what i have to dojust don'ttomorrow by avril lavigne